Sign of what???????

I just suddenly landed on my blog and realized that I didn't write a single word from ages. I remember writing alot of crap, sharing unaccountable thoughts, discussing my fears, relating my experiences and what not. But now,  I seriously dont feel like writing anything. Or I do not want to share anything from what's going on in my life and with my mind. It's not that I ve changed for my blog only, but I am sort of changed person now. I dont know what has happened, but something has seriously happened with me. I do not share many important things even with very close persons in my life. I was very talkative, but now I thought what should I say, should i say something or stay silent. Sign of maturity? Nah.... i am suffering from a fear of annoying people. Or I am trying to solve my problem by myself, without asking others' help. What is it actually? I am unable to figure it out what's wrong with me. Perhaps nothing is wrong.

I smelt something strange in my on the weekend when I went for lunch with my closest and best friend first time after three long years. Both of us were studying in different countries.  Apparently we had alot of stories to share, but it was only she who was talking and i was the one thinking, ' i had alot of things to tell her but what were those'. Lack of concentration had been my problem but these days it is getting severe. I like myself talking all the time but I cant help myself from thinking all the time. Let's see what this changed person will do in coming days!