Do carry a affidavit form about your pregnancy if you are travelling to US.

Few days back, I fell badly on ground backwards. My head, neck, backbone and feet hit the ground like hell. I don't remember what was happening around. What I remember was my terrible screams, my friends' crying, their dragging me to the door, the chilling wind, shivering and then all blackout. Then someone called my name at least ten times, shuddered me at least 20 times and threw a sharp light into my eyes with "Hey! you are in paramedics' safe hands. See in the middle of my both eyes". They were doing something with me which I don't remember now but they didn't let me sleep. I think they were trying to fix me on a board. Then I was taken to the hospital where I had to spent a night. I went through different tests, Cat scan and X rays.

I felt one thing badly. They only wanted me to remain in consciousness to answer the one most imortant question; "Are you pregnant"? They asked this question to my friends many times "Is she pregnant"? "Is there any chance that she could be pregnant"? They did not trust their answer which was negative. So they used to shudder me through the places I was badly hit and ask the same question time and again. Many times, I felt that they were more interested in my pregnancy than treating my bad injuries. "Are you not pregnant"? O man what's the big deal. I am sure there would be many ladies who die without making any kid......but why are they asking this question? At some point, I thought I might be pregnant and I might forget about it. But how is it possble? nahi nahi.....I dont drink. I dont take any other intoxication. Then how could I do such a big thing in unconsciousness? They didn't believe my friends' and my words. They woke me up the 30th time and forced me to sign a form declaring that I wasn't pregnant. Gosh!!

P.S. Living in US, everyone would doubt your virginity after seeing your age. :|

Pinky is my Hero0o0o!!!

My cutie pie munni friend Pinky has cleared the CSS exam. I am so proud of you Pinky! You are my hero and future DC also. xoxo

Pinky, the Hero!

The spell of his speech

Hey Man! you rock!

Acceptance!

I don't know how many events, family functions and other interesting occasions I would miss further. I think all. I am getting used to it now. Events come and pass and leave me with pictures only. I live on pictures. Pictures of all my loved ones are always with me. For few months,  I used to keep all pictures on my bed with the childish thought that they were with me. Then, these went to my study table and now they are lying in the drawer. I ve realized that they are only pictures, nothing more than that. I don't see them much, may be once in two weeks. I don't miss anyone much. i don't talk to them much. I have accepted that I am alone here and I will have to live like this for many years to come. Isn't acceptance a relief in itself?

Being a brat....

With extreme care and affection, I burnt my hand today. Extremely warm oil spilled over at the back of my hand leaving a mysterious scar. I am pretty sure that the mark resembles with the map of some tiny country in Africa. I am still trying to find it out. But today, I missed my mom a lot. I miss everyone terribly. If this would have happened at my home, my whole family would gather around giving me different household tootkas. My mom would first bring toothpaste. Granny would suggest icing. Papa would remain insisting on using Bernol. And after good 15 minutes, my brother would appear out of his room with a pride in his eyes like he is having Aab-e-Hayat and would hand over me a chori mori old herbal ointment explaining the benefits of it. But there was nothing today. I could not do anything for it. I didn’t have any ointment at home. I even couldn’t find the pack of my bandages. I even forgot to apply toothpaste on it. I just left it in cold water and kept remembering the comfort of my home. I am literally a spoiled, rude, irresponsible and careless child of my parents. 

I am used to my mother's voice "Eat something! you did not eat much today". And my father's loving scolds "You actually enjoy teasing us by having low BP". I literally used to enjoy it. But there is no fun here. No drama at all. There is no one to pamper you here. I do not eat until my intestines beg me to put something in them. My stomach makes the loudest noises in the class out of everyone. 

My kitchen is just three steps away. But they are three miles for me. Oh God!! to go there and make something has become the world's hardest thing, harder than running regressions, finding variances and reading stupid recommended articles. 

P.S. I found a 20` bigger tv in a running condition (not walking) in trash. Wadday log tey wadiyan wadiyan galaan :D 

Strange life is!

Sometimes you just regret meeting few people in your life. And other times you think what your life would have been if you have not met them....strange!