Current Mood: Irritant :x
I am tired of being what I am. I dont know what happend to me? But I really feel restless. I think I am going through a deep depression but why is it so? I dont exactly know. And when you dont know the reason of your sickness, it made you more sick and that what I am.
I could not do my work properly. I dont even remember how many days before deadline of my project has been passed. It is more terrible when i cannot make mind to restart it knowing that I am going to trapped in a big trouble.
That is the proof how i make myself trapped in some thing. I was thinking that most of problem are self generated but I could negate the fact that people around me generously contributed to these and some how I myself welcomed them. Remainings lie in my fate.....ehhhhh.....I want to leave every thing and my oooold desire to leave for Makkah is getting more stronger. I wish i could go there for never coming back.
I am trying very very hard to save myself from disappointment through namaz, quarran-e-paak, hadith, family and friends' company ,etc etc etc. I think it is only Allah who can make me calm inshAllah and I am anxiously waiting for that time.
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