Carry money!

Ok laugh at me again. But it's true. I have to carry money everywhere. I couldn't open my bank account yet. Dollars accompany me everywhere I go. I have developed such a great love for them. I love to take them with me even in the bathroom :D.

Jeans, bathroom and dollars.........is there anything left in my life?

God! how much it's difficult to walk in jeans.......and going to loo.......damnnnnn!!!

Good Bye

Good bye everyone. I am going finally!

Do pray for me please!!

There's many a slip between cup and lip!

It was a rumour just few days back but now it has come out to be a reality. Yes it has happened to me. You can tell people around you that it's no more a rumour. It is happening.

Precisely, I am informed by my sponsoring body that my case is still in process and could not yet get the clearance from the Security Department. And do you know why? Because my Surname is Khan. Additionally, my father's middle name is Ullah which is also suspecious for them. They have serious security concerns about me.

My sponsoring body and their Mission in Pak have tried to make me understand what their system is and what the problem is. But all seems their excuses or consolations.

My classes are going to start on Jan 25. My flight was on Jan 19. I have received the ticket but all is useless. This would be second time that my flight is going to delay.

I wish i could have any friend available at this time of the night. Do I want to cry? But what would I get through it. Everyone is already upset at home due to me. Stop these tears you silly darn!!! STOPPPP!!

I dont know what's next. But I will have to face what has written for me. Is it really happening to me?

Punning Culture

I have been observing that the Punning Culture is getting popular these days. I dont know about the other cities of Pakistan, but in Lahore, you cannot escape from it anywhere you go. On last weekend, the following discussion was happened between a shopkeeper and I:

I: Is shawl ki kiya price hai bhai?

Shopkeeper: Baji! ye 2000 ki hai.

I: Itni expensive....(I checked the stuff again).... tu bhai do gay kis terhan?

Shopkeeper: Shopping bag mai daal kay...... (and he started smiling like hell with his missing tooth)

Helpless

I wish I could stop my sister till my departure :(

BTW, am I really going? :O

The Averages

It happens every time. Whenever I expect the worst, I get the average. And whenever I expect the best, I again stick to the average. The Average is becoming a part of my life. Or it may not be wrong if I say that my life is based on averages :P

I was the average student, an average human being with average looks, an averagely loving person, an average well-dressed, average serious, average witty, average intelligent, average hardworking and I only love Averages in mathematics. How funny :D

Khair! I was expecting worst behavior of my relatives while meeting them. But the day went off without anything worst but averagely good. Interesting!

Except my dadi jaan who remained telling me that I am going to take her heart with me. And how her son will live without me. Ahhhh……It was the real drama, an emotional one but I didn’t cry. Not even a tear fell from my eyes. I could not bear anyone crying in front of me. I remember that I used to cry even to watch any emotional scene on tv. Khair! I am trying to avoid it. It may be beacuse I have cried alot or that I am saving my saltish water for my future. Or that I want to show others that I am a brave girl and happy on what is going to happen. There may be many reasons. Many people tried to make me cry through their sentimental dialogues but I am a dheet of my kind. Oh yes the one reason may be that I am kind of selfish....*sheeeesh*. I hope it's not!

One thing that I forgot to mention that I am averagely excited on going abroad. Dont know why but I never had dreams of going abroad or all that. I am happy and thanking Allah SWT but not that excited which I should be. I am going through strange feelings these days.

Difficult time!

My parents had been trying to prepare me for the current situation. I thought I was ready enough to face it if my family supports me, but now when I am in it, I feel it extremely difficult to face. I have also put my family in a difficult situation. They are tired of answering people's rang barangay questions.

My parents have disclosed to the whole family and friends that I am going abroad for studies. What type of reaction you may expect from the whole family? "Abroad :O ...haw she's going alone".

Some, in fact two or three families congratulated. But all of my father's friends congratulated him warmly. One even came to our home with sweets. I love him. We literally had good time with him in our childhood. He was so excited like my father and gave his wishes. Relatives living abroad called my parents and told them how much big this news is. My two cousins only, one sis and one bro, sent their wishes. But no one from my real aunties and uncles congratulated us except one of my uncles. My dadi didn't approve my father's decision. And many have told my parents that they would have to repent on this decision (God forbidden). It hurt me, hurt me alot.

My father has asked me to visit my dadi's home where most of my uncles live in. I am going to visit there today. I dont know what reception I would receive but I would have to bear it all. My father wants me to listen everyone patiently and to say everyone good bye even if they dont want to see my face. Let's see what would happen today!

Heavy Weight!

What more I can say or pray....

I just hate my thiny friends. I would have to search for the new ones :P !

THE YEAR THAT WAS AND THE YEAR THIS IS!

Another year has been passed. I had been complaining from many years that time had been flying like hell. I was just watching days passing year over years. But it didn't happen during the 2009. I felt the each day passing by.  spent each day counting the remaining ones. I spent most of the time whether in working or waiting.Oh God how many tests and interviews I have been taken this year?

When I stepped in the 2009, I was emotionally bruised at all fronts of my life. I had a very tough time in 2008. The few starting months of 2009 were spent collecting myself. Trying to disengage from your past and stepping into your present with the zest and ardor for the future was really very hard. I did nothing. But Allah SWT paved my way throughout and my family supported me fully. Alhamdulillah

I set few goals in 2009. One of them was to get promoted and the other was to score admission for higher studies. Whole year was passed in hardworking and struggle. I wasn’t sure if I would hit any of my goals. But I decided to give my best. Although the ghosts of past (as a fan call them) remained after me pulling me back. But they are after all the past and I tried to live the present and to worry about the future. 

Thank you Allah Mian gee, thank you very much. You are the Greatest. No words can thank you for the blessings you have bestowed upon and is still granting me with the best. Please! accept my bowing of head as my thanks. The fruit of my hardworking is much more than what I had expected. I got promoted and scored the admission finally. I still feel that I am dreaming. Is it really true? If not then please Allah gee make me asleep forever.

I got the bonus when my parents allowed me to avail the opportunity of studying abroad. You know what, my family is still shocked. They are asking my father time and again if he has really allowed me to go US. haha......He responds, "Yes and I am really proud of her. MashAllah she did the impossible. How could I deprive her from having such an honour? I can't". I dont believe it too. I just love my parents. I feel myself literally in heaven. My all wishes are coming true.

One resolution was to reduce weight. Just leave it! it wasn't that important :D .
And yes I am more than happy that I need not to retake the GRE. woohoooo!!

And the marriage.....it has been further postponed for two more years but with my parents' consent. :)

So one year has been gone and the other has been started. Happy New Year to everyone1

The 2010 is going to bring a complete change in my life. I am all ready for it but kind of scared as well. This year, I would have one heavy duty resolution: 'Reduce weight'. Yes it has become important NOW because I feel it difficult to breathe in jeans :)

So on your marks!
Get set!
Go!!!